Last night at the L5 Concert, Glen Dustin got up and talked about his "bout with depression". Personally I dont believe in the conteporary idea of depression. Yes when people are tested they show chemical imbalances, but there is little that those pills are going to do for that sin in your life that you wont let go of.
But I got what he was saying about the troubles that are on your mind being so heavy that when you pray you just dont know what to ask for. I didnt even know where to start. Finances? Relationships? Goals? Work? I didnt know what to say to the problems I have in my life.
If you consult the great big book of useless Cliches it would give me this answer "Some people have a lot worse". But knowing that just makes me sadder.
Thanks to God's love and mercy though we dont consult that book. No nor texts not even anthologies of poetry. But we consult the word of God. And in that word you'll find answers to every problem, and solutions to every need.
So Some time last week I pushed everything off of my plate, I put off studying, didn't excercise, shut off my phone and just sat. I believe that the problems we have start from the sin we harbor in our lives. I knew that I had to have that time with God, but where to start? So I started off praising Him for the many things He has done in my life. How much I need him. Then it flowed, like a clogged drain I let all of the murky water of my sin, and my problems out into that empty room for my Lord to hear. Holding nothing back, from my concerns about the health and well being of others, all the way to sin. I asked for guidance, wisdom, mercy and compassion. All the time confessing how weak and useless I am without Him. I got up and I knew of the peace that the Psalmist mentions in Psalm 4:8. One that conjures of that first night of rest you had after you were saved. That kind of peace. Knowing that my Lord had me firmly, that I stood on that solid foundation.
The trick I think is not to let it build up over the day, month, week or year. But to go to Him immediately with your prayers, concerns, and yes even those things that sinfully worry us. To confess sin, and to take actions to never go back to that sin. I'm not going to say that every problem was solved, but I wont deny Him the deserved glory by not saying that He didnt provide the means over the next week. That conversation took a while, and it took even more out of me. My God works wonders. I hope I never forget that all my problems, are just opportunities to see the Father work
Hold nothing back, Take none of it with you when you go.
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